thoughts.

back into the world.




the trip was great.

draggy, but nonetheless memorable. a lot of mixed feelings.



kicked it off on the wrong foot. 6.5 hour car ride from chiang mai to the north. got really carsick and puked. so i lost my gloves, one thick jacket and a pair of pants. i was so spent by the time i got there, i just fell asleep. weather was a real downer too. freezing at night and in the morning. but in the afternoon, it was so searing hot.

i was homesick. severely. only thing keeping me afloat was christmas, seeing the folks and all the other people that matter i.e. friends and family.

but as much as i wanted to go back, i also wanted to stay. i wanted to live like they do. the simple life. living off the land, with no real and ever present worry. surrounded by the beauty of nature God created, living it everyday. for the first time in my life, I found it really easy to keep the sabbath there. even though i didnt have a phone, no connection to the outside world, no electricity, and no ipod and music, i can say that i loved that sorta life. i felt great. but yet incomplete for certain aspects. but still a wonderful feeling.

you dont know what living free is until you sit at the back of a pickup speeding down the thai highway down mountains at 160kmph with the wind in your hair and the fresh cool air coursing through your lungs. you dont know what living life is until you see the simple wonders of this world that leave you awestruck. the magnificent sunrises, the stars at night, the mountain ranges. its through this trip that i've felt my closest to God in my entire life.


but honestly its a real bummer to be back in the city. to leave all that behind. =\